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well.. not say few la. but some things are just not to be said now.. you'll know why.. hahah...

neways.. just returned from clubbing!! lols.. was VERY fun..!! haha.. went there with a very big group.. met up at cineleisure first.. benji was so sick of waiting.. can see why.. haha.. went around town to see see look look at things awhile.. paragon and cine.. den they went to play dota at cine L9.. wah.. sianz.. cos ryan dont know and dont wanna know how to play dota.. so just zip up and shut up lo.. haha.. den left for the club..!! but bad news!! had to take the train cos there got a stupid road block..?!?! what the fcuk!?!?! they said its because of the vesak day thingy la.. damn stupid lor.. wah lau.. train-ed to the club there.. haiz... single trip...$2 burn just like that..

today jumped from club to another club again.. haha.. fun la.. den reach there saw THE ANDY LIM!! wow.. shuai ge lai lo!! haha... chatted awhile about work den clubbed.. haha.. went to the other club at Tras Street to see a show til about 1.30++.. crowd wasnt that good so we went over to another club.. haha.. there the scene was damn happening..!! damn alot of people also.. haha.. and the DJ spinned some very good music!! thanks Mr. DJ!! ryan thinks that ryan's dancing skills getting better lo.. as in better than last time.. wah.. last time damn paiseh le wanna dance.. bt now at least got the courage to go dance without anyone asking ryan to go la.. hahha.. we all like clubbed one corner of the place lor.. about 6 of us.. haha.. saw what happened to andy!! haha.. suay sia.. but good publicity.. high profile mah.. haha...

den went back to the club along tras street.. andy jio us all go back so we went.. hahh.. okay la.. since they all the regulars there.. and since they all so on.. hah.. why not?? (pardon the pun ya:P) lols.. temptations ryan.. temptations!! finished the day off with Listen by Beyonce.. it was great..!! we left the club at 4 to have supper at a nearby coffeeshop..

hmm.. ryan talked to a few people la.. there was kenneth, jeremy, shu hui, owl, wilson and a few more.. haha.. ryan forgotten their names la.. so many friends now.. how to remember all their names.. haha.. but as time pass.. ryan sure remember de.. haha.. den from there walked to boat quay mac to grab some stuff den headed to clarke quay to take bus 851.. slept like a pig lor.. people had to wake ryan up le when the bus reach the interchange.. reached home only at 7.. ryan washed up and blogged this lo.. hahah...

so damn shagged.. but ryan very happy!! haha.. thanks andy!!(: haha.. really mean it la.. bring ryan go out one whole night.. hah.. plus get the chance to go out with HIGH PROFILE people le.. wah.. so honoured!! haha... well.. now is getting sleepy le. hmm.. later is CA birthday.. must go must go.. shout out to CA: HAIR PEE BIRD DAY WOR!! spare you the paiseh of announcing your age online wor..!! anyways.. ryan wish you a very rewarding and happy year ahead and also many more years to come..!! get a lao gong la.. haha.. see you like that.. so ke lian.. haha.. takkire ya gerl?? see ya!! okie.. need to sleep le.. tag my board ya?? esp that shawn niew.. read ryan's blog but never tag.. kns.. haha.. joking nia.. bubbye..!!

p.s.: will post ryan's clubbing kakis pictures soon ya.. watch this space!!

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well the past few days ryan hasnt been blogging.. wont say that ryan is busy.. cos its only work and club.. hmm.. its that ryan has been kinda lazy, emo and trying to find myself.. haiz.. well.. let ryan break it down for ya..

saturday was working with uncle in the morning.. didnt go for the cashflow competition cos was needed to priortise.. left at about 4 and went to town.. hmm.. met up with benji and the guys.. hmm.. first impression.. keep it to ryan only.. haha.. met them at about 6 plus at cine.. there was alot of people there.. haha.. den we left for the club at around 11..?? ya.. haiz.. but as usual.. gotten in for free.. lols.. didnt had this much fun since... dunno when.. watched the opening show den was FORCED to dance.. lols.. but ryan CANT dance..!!! was like a stupid idiot lo.. dunno how to dance.. but gotten a crash course by someone la.. haha.. sorry.. didnt get your name.. lols.. paiseh.. had alot of drinks man... wow.. it was like.. alot lo.. was there until it closed at 4 den we left for supper nearby.. reached home at about 7.30am..?? ya..haha.. thanks for the ride ya!!

sunday was kinda sian.. cos no one went out.. haiz.. but ryan got the aftereffects of drinking too much.. haha.. wah!! hangover man.. shitty..! its like the whole world spinning!! hhaha.. lols.. SHAWN NIEW!! I AM NOT A CLUBBING SIAO!! goddammit..!! only 2 days nia.. say clubbing siao.. den you le..?? basketball siao idiotic sleeping, smelly piggy freak!! haha.. ryan damn guai lan wor?!?! he deserves it la.. 1 week never meet ryan den si beh guai lan liao.. ka na sai.. haha..

yesterday didnt go school.. working for uncle again.. den after that met benji at library@orchard.. he was there with calli.. planned to go to Spenelli's at hereen but from only the 3 of us became... alot of us.. haha. there was ryan, THE benji, cali, mingyang, lionel, THE andy lim, kenneth and another guy.. hahaa.. sorrie.. didnt get your name.. haha.. was there till about 7?? den we left for dinner at cine's foodcourt.. they had dinner den everyone left.. hmm.. they're a great buch of guys la.. jokers.. hahah... it was a stress-free day lor.. funny and very guai lan day.. haha..

well.. today's class was cognitive module.. haha.. faci wong again!! yippie!!haha.. but task today damn sian.. haiz.. ideas.. ryan got no freaking IDEA..?!?! haiz.. den ryan was like.. different lor today.. haiz.. although ryan dont think that the rest saw it la. but ryan was really different.. haiz.. dunno why..

today's team..!!

this past week.. all presentation that ryan did all not of the same standard that ryan did before.. it was below par. WAY BELLOW PAR!! shit la.. what's wrong with ryan?? is it how life has been that has been affecting ryan's performance in class..?? or is it that ryan really has dropped form.. its like really below par.. or is it because ryan set a standard that is too high..?? dont feel like it le.. haiz.. will never know.. and no one will.. not even ryan.. only time will tell.. haiz..

off to being emo again ya?? takkire.. tag if necessary.. love ya lots!!

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today was bad til someone cheered ryan up.. hmm...

today lesson was terrible..!! sorry guys!! ryan went out of point.. haiz.. had to do 3 case study and went out of point in all 3!!! shit..!! first time doing case study.. and regretted doing it man.. sure get a C.. shit!! the first C and it gotta be for Enterprise..?!?! even Computing Module never do daily assignments also can get B.. but this. this is bad.. ryan was sooooo depressed... haiz..

after school tried to contact some friends to go out and unwind.. was really too depressed.. only 1 person went out with ryan.. thanks to that person..!! had a great time today.. well.. lets call that person G aites?? G was ryan's so called "blind date".. well.. ryan and G met at 8.30 and went to bugis to have dinner though ryan only pei G to eat.. cos ryan had really no appetite.. didnt eat from morning until after school cos was busy doing that stupid presentation..!! and after knowing the dreaded results.. ryan had no appetite to eat.. until now.. hmm.. though G asked ryan alot of times to go eat.. ryan didnt.. ryan knows that you care.. and thanks for that(:..

at 10 we left for the first pub.. that was where G used to work.. haha.. G loved working there la and G missed that place.. so since we had alot of time.. we went there.. then, at 11 we left for a club..!! haha.. ryan hadn't been to club since ages man..! lols.. and now ryan is going back there..!! ambiance was great.. crowd was average and the show was great.. enjoyed it alot.. haha.. den we went off to find someone at a pub but that person wasnt there.. so we went to the 2nd pub.. nearby also.. haaha.. that the crowd was great!! haha.. thanks G for bringing ryan there..!! wanted to stay longer buy since G was tired.. ryan and G called it a night..

hmm... well.. on a whole (minus the class part).. the day was great..!! dunno how to thank G enough.. haiz.. well.. ryan need to just say this out.. at the 1st club.. G met someone familiar.. and G approached that person.. lets name this person N.. N hugged G 3 freaking times in front of ryan and N got a kiss on the cheek that N asked from G.. ryan was like... what the fcuk?!?! it was ryan's blind date man.. cant you see?!?! though G told ryan that N was a very well known person.. does that gives N the right to do what he did?!?! haiz.. ryan is lost.. is ryan developing some kind of feelings of jealousy? its like.. only our first blind date.. it happened so fast.. haiz.. lets see what happens next ya..? well.. think that ryan will spend the lonely nights clubbing now... if there's no cover charge that is.. haha.. no money so have to do this.. hmm.. well.. takkire ya?? tag comments aite? nitez..

p.s. all pubs and clubs ryan went in had no cover charge.. ahaaha!!!

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well.. yesterday ryan slept like a freaking pig because was too tired.. night before only slept at 3 cos was chatting over the phone.. hmm.. didnt blog since monday cos was kinda busy with work and stuff.. tuesday as kind fun because we did skits/video in class!! haha. no powerpoint presentation was allowed so ryan's team had to do a video.. take a look and comment ya?? haha(:...


class discussion..


MingKwang accuse Mindy of off-ing her switch..



correcting situation of MK accuse Mindy of off-ing her switch.. but MK role played by ryan now..

hmm.. wenedsay topic was kind of boring and tough.. stupid basketball.. hmph.. can it really be depended on figures..?? i mean its like .. forget it.. finish le.. ahah... no need to elaborate.. neways.. never do the daily assignments for Maths.. ryan slept at 7 and woke up only this morning.. lols.. but today's lesson is always one to look forward to.. haha.. its communications(:..!! haha.. today was on language.. we had to come up with examples of wrong usage of language.. hmm... we had alot of videos.. hah.. 3 in total.. hmm.. den we were runners up for the team name and slogan.. hmm.. shoutout to hazaam's team.. great work guys..!! haha.. his team won the best team.. and also we took lotsa picture.. haha.. about halp the class.. about 12.. squeezed into the picture..!! haha... to was like faces only la.. haha.. but still good.. and also other random pics taken along the way.. shot the pics using the lappy's cam.. kinda good quality la.. duhz.. take a look ya?


Vanessa and denise presenting to lee ah ping.. amy in the background..


Hazzam's team's pic.. the team which won the best team!!


half the class's pic.. haha.. too many to mention names la.. ryan's the bottom left. lols..

one last thing.. ryan's health is getting better by the day.. ryan wishes to express his gratitudes to those who sent in their well wishes..!! cough is still there.. but the rest all GONE!! haha.. yahoo!! well..

on to another part of ryan's idiotic life.. there's now someone in ryan's life.. in fact 2.. hmm.. well tis kinda complicated.. one is someone who has confessed the feelings to ryan and the other is someone who ryan spent a night chatting to.. ryan feels real comfortable with the second one because ryan has spent more time chatting over the phone than first one with but the first one is more of ryan's type.. hmm.. thinking of ryan's next move. what can ryan do?? hmm.. let nature take its course?? or should ryan pave his own life..? well.. advice needed.. tag ryan ya?? thanks a million!!(:

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GREEN DAY LYRICS



"Jesus Of Suburbia"

[Part 1]

I'm the son of rage and love
The Jesus of Suburbia
From the bible of none of the above
On a steady diet of soda pop and Ritalin
No one ever died for my sins in hell
As far as I can tell
At least the ones I got away with

And there's nothing wrong with me
This is how I'm supposed to be
In a land of make believe
That don't believe in me

Get my television fix sitting on my crucifix
The living room or my private womb
While the moms and brads are away
To fall in love and fall in debt
To alcohol and cigarettes and Mary Jane
To keep me insane and doing someone else's cocaine

And there's nothing wrong with me
This is how I'm supposed to be
In a land of make believe
That don't believe in me

[Part 2: City Of The Damned]

At the center of the Earth
In the parking lot
Of the 7-11 where I was taught
The motto was just a lie
It says home is where your heart is
But what a shame
Cause everyone's heart
Doesn't beat the same
It's beating out of time

City of the dead
At the end of another lost highway
Signs misleading to nowhere
City of the damned
Lost children with dirty faces today
No one really seems to care

I read the graffiti
In the bathroom stall
Like the holy scriptures of a shopping mall
And so it seemed to confess
It didn't say much
But it only confirmed that
The center of the earth
Is the end of the world
And I could really care less

City of the dead
At the end of another lost highway
Signs misleading to nowhere
City of the damned
Lost children with dirty faces today
No one really seems to careeeeee

[Part 3: I don't care]

I don't care if you don't
I don't care if you don't
I don't care if you don't care
[x4]

I don't careeeeeeeeee

Everyone is so full of shit
Born and raised by hypocrites
Hearts recycled but never saved
From the cradle to the grave
We are the kids of war and peace
From Anaheim to the middle east
We are the stories and disciples
Of the Jesus of suburbia
Land of make believe
That don't believe in me
Land of make believe
And I don't believe
And I don't care!
I don't care! [x4]

[Part 4: Dearly beloved]

Dearly beloved are you listening?
I can't remember a word that you were saying
Are we demented or am I disturbed?
The space that's in between insane and insecure
Oh therapy, can you please fill the void?
Am I retarded or am I just overjoyed
Nobody's perfect and I stand accused
For lack of a better word, and that's my best excuse

[Part 5: Tales of another broken home]

To live and not to breathe
Is to die In tragedy
To run, to run away
To find what you believe
And I leave behind
This hurricane of fucking lies
I lost my faith to this
This town that don't exist

So I run
I run away
To the light of masochist
And I leave behind
This hurricane of fucking lies
And I walked this line
A million and one fucking times
But not this time

I don't feel any shame
I won't apologize

When there ain't nowhere you can go
Running away from pain
When you've been victimized
Tales from another broken home

You're leaving...
You're leaving...
You're leaving...
Ah you're leaving home..

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well.. ryan has been sick since thurs.. dunno why.. ryan thinks its because of the drastic change in ryan's bedtime.. well.. let ryan explain.. ryan has usually slept at about 11pm.. but since thursday. ryan has been sleeping after school straight and woke up at 10-11pm.. that's why ryan is sick.. cos last time ryan also like that.. den sick like siao.. hahah.. so now also.. haiz..

well.. health check!!: fever (still there), flu (getting better), cough, (nothing's changed), sore throat (worse, because still screaming and shouting in class..hehe..) headache(worse!!).. now feets getting cold.. hmm.. think ryan gonna fall sick damn badly real soon.. haiz..

neways.. to add to the headache.. today.. class was damn hard.. it was about pressure and speed.. mindy said it is a pure physics thingy... wah!! PURE?!?! DAMMIT..!! ryan learn combined already wanna die.. now see pure physics question.. jia lat liao.. den headache like damn.. ARGH!! pain sia.. just tahan nia.. can do what? although headache just carry on lo.. bobian.. haha.. but got the hang of it la.. haha..

haiz.. dunno what word to use.. misunderstand..?? hmm.. dont misunderstand ryan can? dont ASSUME!! it makes an ASS out of U and ME..!! (the caps words spell assume..) i dunno bout you but ryan dont wanna look like an ass.. ask la.. is it so hard to clarify?? maybe la.. i dunno.. cos now we no longer close.. but does assumption makes up for questioning..? hope not.. dont wish to be like this perhaps? hmm.. but whatever happens.. ryan will still look out from behind.. this kind of small misunderstanding dont wish to make big la.. no use.. haiz.. well.. ryan's gonna turn in soon.. headache's killing ryan..!!

agenda for tomorrow...? UT Test on basic science.. guess gonna fail ba.. dunno can cancentrate anot.. haiz.. damn headache.. why now?? when it is the most important part of ryan's life?!?! alot of things are at stake now..!! haiz.. what will be.. wil be.. life sucks gotta admit it.. but its also fun cos its also full of the suprises..

stooing here.. takkire ya?? nitez..

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yesterday ryan was still sick la basically..cough getting worse but flu dropped already. sore throat still there.. haiz.. dunno when will well.. shoutout to all those who gave their well wishes: thanks alot..!!

neways.. yesterday wasnt allowed to work again.. haiz.. same reason.. so no money.. dammit.. went all the way to yio chu kang just to go back home.. so went over to 346 to meet jerlin, kailin and few more gerls.. haha.. stupid jerlin.. ask ryan bring lappy den use while nia.. might as well dont bring.. lols.. go there cos they wanna see shawnie bro and lewis play bball.. den sum bian see a fugly person.. haha.. really was damn auntie le.. hmm.. forget bout that la.. neways.. ryan left for home soon enough cos headache making ryan's world spin... hahah..

reached home at about 6?.. lols.. and watch a racing show.. dunno is what show.. ryan's elder bro bought it home.. watched halfway and slept.. woke up and drenched in sweat at 10.45pm.. saw daddy going off to work.. tried to go online but cant.. something wrong with the connection.. so cant blog last night.. slept again at around 1..

now in class.. doing science.. damn sian.. cos cant talk so dont think will participate well today.. dammit.. there does my grades.. thinking of leaving class early but dont think will.. cos reached already.. like wasted la.. well.. later will blog in again.. busy now.. see ya..!!

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today woke up early cos thought go help uncle.. but he say no need as ryan still sick.. haiz.. no money take ler.. sian.. haiz.. yupe.. ryan still sick.. getting worse.. flu becoming blocked nose.. cough becoming worse.. sore throat more irritating ler.. and facing mild fever also.. haiz..dunno can get well soon anot.. neways. thanks jerlin for the well wishes.. haha.. hope can get well soon also.. promise we'll go watch blades of glory once ryan is well aites? haha..

well.. switched on msn and added some people.. den chatted with jerlin, ca, garret, marcus and few more people.. damn sian.. hahah.. CA birthday coming ler so ryan had to confirm the number of people coming for her bbq.. say that ryan, shawn,jerlin all confirm go.. haha.. the rest confirm later..

met jerlin and kelly at chong pang at 5.40.. supposed to meet at 5 de.. haha. sorry was late.. den go walk walk at chong pang the pasar malam as they wanna see some bags and stuff.. den kelly ask ryan to buy her a particular bag for her for her birthday.. lols.. fat hope.. hah... lols.. next year still got chance la.. this year.. need to see ba.. haha... :P den go causeway point as kelly wanted to buy her barbell.. haha.. at x-craft.. den jerlin called catt go 715 court bring shirt as they wanna play rain.. haha.. just well den wanna play rain.. can still say STRONG wor..?? haha.. okok..

shawnie bro was at 715 with lewis and some people from the if-ryan-not-wrong now-defunct feng basketball team.. haha.. see them play and chatted til 8 den kelly wanna go home den we go kfc as jerlin was kinda hungry.. hah.. den saw shawnie bro and lewis also there.. haha.. didnt talk to lewis.. only to shawnie bro.. still angry with him but acted nothing.. what can ran do especially in front of jerlin.. haiz..

den ryan went off with jerlin as she had to fetch her younger sis from granny's house at yishun.. so pei her in bus.. hah.. den off back home lor.. had medicine and chatted with few people and doing this blogging.. haiz.. sian ar this weekend.. sick so no work den no pay also.. haiz.. well.. gonna turn in now.. nitez..

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after bloging in yesterday evening.. ryan went to sleep.. cos ryan is sick.. having flu, cough and sore throat.. uncle say if not well dont need to help.. haiz.. there it goes.. well.. yesterday it was kid of a not bad day la..

ryan woke up at 7.30am.. already had a sore throat.. it like damn irritating.. ryan had no mood to talk in class but just participated.. reached class at around 8.45.. den faci raymond reached and he asked ryan why ryan was absent for the past 2 weeks.. eh..hello?! we can take leave you know?!?!but ryan didnt say that la.. just joked with him.. said that ryan was busy with work and stuff.. we did something on counter productivity at the workplace and classroom.. ryan's team had to do the skit but ryan didnt do it cos was doing the presentation..

we tried out the new sound system in class and let ryan tell you.. IT WAS GOOD!! lols.. not bad la... we blasted some songs in class as another class was doing the same..haha.. it was LOUD!! meeting 3 we were supposed to go to W3-LT which is the lecture room at blk W3.. haha.. ryan asked the whole class to "pakat" cos we were late so we all go in together.. hhaha.. den faci raymond ask why we late.. ryan joked saying time zone difference.. haha.. joking nia. lols.. den meeting 3 was kind of fun la.. we had a few best actors and actresses.. lols.. different way pf presenting so it was fun.. OMG!! den faci raymond say he'll get other faci into class to critic our presentation.. we were like.. what the fuck?!? but it'll take some time lah.. lols..
here's some pics from today's class:-






finished class at 4.15 and left for home...
this sore throat is killing ryan.. need some medications man.. but all finished ler.. lols.. maybe later go buy..

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well.. ryan's not blogging in early.. just wanna vent some frustrations after finding out the truth about someone.. haiz.. is it that important to have a partner at such a young age..?? what ryan means is.. are they that important..?? even so.. do we really need to be with that particular person the whole time? its like.. you see that person in morning till you end school at about 3+ to 4 right? do you really meed to be with that person the rest of the day...? if you were to see someone for like 8-10 hours wouldn't it be like damn sian..??

even though that person is your partner.. and hey.. that person aint even your life partner.. just someone who you will eventually break off within a year with because of a fight/quarrel.. and then you'll never hear from that person again right? i'm not saying that you cant keep a relationship.. just that at that age isn't it supposed to be some puppy love..?? why do you need to spend so much time with that person when the future for you all are like so damn uncertain.. and you say "i love you FOREVER" when you know you're definitely not gonna marry her.. much less FOREVER..

den goddammit..!! it it really that important to be with your partner 24/7!?! you see that person from monday through friday.. cant you even spend a day or at most an afternoon/evening with us to sit down and have a decent meal..?! is she really THAT important?? and you need to pang seh your bros just for her..?? and don't forget.. do you remember when you and your bro go into a heated fight and you made a promise to your bro that you'll not pang seh bro for stead and guess what?? YOU'RE DOING IT!!! you expect him not to pang seh you but you're doing it to him.. is it fair?? not to ryan but to your bro??

you look for your bro when you need him and then you push him aside just like that?!?! dont forget.. you ask for his companion and he obliged.. now you wouldn't even make the effort to turn up for the most important night of a below-18 yrs old's life..?? instead you spend the afternoon WATCHING SPIDERMAN 3 WITH HER??!?!?! its not like you forgot.. you knew but she's more important right?? ryan even spoke to you over MSN regarding that but what did you say?!?! your games are more important.. you wouldn't even reply people's smses.. FUCK ALL THAT BULLSHIT LA.. not only ryan but even someone else close to you is fed up with your attitude.. i'm not gonna say who.. you should know..

fuck care if you're reading this post or not.. its been bugging ryan for a week now.. and all you think about is her. its either her, bball or your games.. spare a thought for other people can? we're not seeking attention.. but you sought our attention.. well.. truth hurts.. but as a companion/friend/brother.. ryan is doing it for your own good..

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Today.. ryan met the actual facilitator to communications.. hmm.. lasy week ryan didnt come so didnt see her.. so the much awaited reveal.. well.. other than that there is also the fun time we had in class today.. haha.. well.. stay tuned to find out what.. lols..

well.. ryan just woke up.. lols.. so tired that slept immediately after ryan reached home from school.. jiu woke up now.. hahhaa.. feeling very lethargic.. neways.. promised someone to blog tonight iu must blog.. haha.. here goes..

the mush awaited reveal of the new faci today.. hmm.. well.. ryan thought that the faci was a chio bu.. haha.. wrong again... no offence to the faci.. how should ryan say.. below expectation?? lols.. she's abit like the old faci la.. very proactive and outgoing.. well nice to meet you and hope to work together in future..

hmm.. lesson today was on beyond hearing.. haha.. but we did not go straight into lesson.. oh ya!! we had UT today!! ryan was early.. reached class at 8.40.. haha.. sorry laura.. got traffic jam at yishun so late.. hahah.. neways.. UT was not bad.. it is like.. concept only lor.. you understand the concept den okay ler. hah..

well back to the main point.. haha.. after UT we had some games to get the day started.. haha.. something ryan played before.. those passing of message game.. like this..

this game.. well.. the lady next to chuan zhi is our new faci..

it was fun as we had to "skillfully" block ourself from the class distractions.. haha.. vanessa was like damn idiotic with that plan and we sabotaged her with the spongebob song (ryan blast from lappy.. hahha..)when we played it again after the 6P presentation.. lols.. fun sia.. haha.. bonding games are fun la.. get to see the real class.. the class was like so mean lor.. lols..

well back to the lesson.. it was quite an easy one today.. haha.. cos like what nani says.. communication is very fun so the stress not that much la.. haha.. well.. ryan's team did good.. but that's for later.. haha.. now.. for meeting 3. it was damn fun la.. haha.. we were proactive and there was a surprise from almost every team.. ryan's team had 2 instead of 1. haha.. cos we had the game and also MK singing the song.. haha.. barney.. nuts man.. lols.. well.. after that we had another round of the pass message thingy.. haha... we now like more pro sia.. lols.. play play.. haha.. suddenly saw the weakness in everyone.. haha.. mindy.. you forgot everything!! haha.. damn slow sia.. lols...

well.. ryan's team was the best team for the game hence we won:
some snacks lor.. (:

haha.. those are for our team la.. but we shared with the whole class.. haha.. for bonding mah.. hah.. it was a very homely and lively feel la after class.. everyone enjoying and playing.. haha.. den after that was normal la.. went home and slept.. haha.. well other pics of the day is here..

MK and Laura..


faizal the jokes man..!!


vanessa's ream

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lols.. nope we did not bring guns to class or anything.. just that we shoot the faci till very jialat today.. haha.. here it goes..

ryan reached class earlier than faci today.. haha.. about 5 mins.. cos left the house today at 8.. reached at about 8.45.. just nice.. lol.. we did something like last week on probability but on a bigger scale... nothing different about 1st and 2nd meeting but 3rd meeting was unusual because ryan, yuhan, hazam and jordan planned during 2nd breakout to shoot the facilitator.. that stupid old man.. haha.. and we did.. basically we shot questions around today.. no more hiding.. lol..

ryan shot vanessa a question den she buay song.. den ryan team present presentation she shoot ryan.. wah.. lucky got bulletproof first.. hahh.. den when faci ask 1 question ryan answer den quickly bulletproof.. hahaha.. lucky fast sia.. den faci diam liao.. haha.. den everyone do that to faci sia.. haha.. funny.. so faci today kana shoot lor.. lols.. we now know how to bulletproof ler wor.. dont play play.. lols.. lucky last time got learn how to bulletproof.. if not .. ryan shot dead ar..!! argh!! lols.. haha..

well.. nothing great happened today.. just a normal day.. poly life getting more boring and tiring.. haiz.. rj qn getting more chim.. haix.. lucky got ryan's mates in class.. haha.. if not.. sure lost de.. lols.. well.. take care yupez.. tomorrow ryan got UT.. must sleep early.. later late again.. den die liao. haha.. neways.. want to meet new comms faci tomorrow.. ryan heard its a chio bu.. haha.. well.. that's tomorrow's story.. takkire.. bubbye..!! tag ryan ya??

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well.. ryan woke up at 3am..!! to open the door for daddy and mummie.. forgot to bring key den go and lock themselves out.. kns.. haha.. woke up at 7am want to go ut le den mummie start lecture.. haiz.. early morning got lecture le.. sianz ar.. then because of ryan's dad and mom kpkb jiu ryan late for UT Test!! reached class at 9.15 den got one faci at outside say cannot go in.. argh!! 3rd UT missed!! 1st was the mock ut.. second was tnursday's cognitive ut den today comms ut.. shit la..

neways.. reached class jiu ryan dunno sit where.. haha.. cos reshuffle ma.. den chris came to class find ryan in class.. settle le go back class everyone ask what happenned.. hahha.. like got show.. jiu say nothing lo.. some dont believe.. haha.. well class today quite boring cos ryan sit at corner jiu no fun.. must sit in middle den got fun la.. hah.. today do some brainstorming thingy.. didnt understand but just do.. got a bit understand la as it goes on.. hhaha..

jiu after class go home den meet uncle at 5.30pm.. take pay den go cwp meet friends for talk.. haha.. den when talking ryan thought saw a chio bu.. den nearer le den.. eh.. mindy nia.. hahah.. thought chio bu sia.. hahha.. lols.. if you reading this den too bad lor.. haha.. lols.. jiu go home at 8.30 and slack.. nothing to do mah.. do all rj thingy den msn lor.. haha.. today damn sian..

but all ryan wanna say is that ryan really wanna change.. cannot see meh..? haiz.. if really dont believe den forget it bah.. haiz.. too bad.. well for people who dont understand.. ryan wanna change for the better..not only for work but as a person lor.. cos ryan reflected alot and ryan see alot of changes in ryan.. haiz..

well.. today ryan touched the first ciggs after 19 days.. haiz.. really not in good mood after this morning lecture.. had to take a breather.. haiz.. stress lor.. no one believe ryan.. haiz.. neways.. ryan wanna sign off.. tmr is that old man's lesson.. SI BEH SIAN AR..!! KPKB AR HE..!! tmr ryan sure shoot him de.. stay tuned.. haha.. bubbye den..nitez.

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this was to be blogged yesterday.. but something was wrong.. well.. here's yesterday's post...
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hmm.. nothing much for today.. ryan just returned from work.. damn tired.. haha.. hmm.. end of the week liao.. for school.. this week is holiday week.. haha.. go school only 1 day.. lol.. W15P.. ryan's back man..!! haha.. watch out!! well.. jerlin they all not schooling for a few days this coming week since its marking day.. have a good rest ya..? you've all earned it.. study so hard.. take a break and unwind..

well.. shawnie bro birthday.. hmm.. ryan really sorrie since had nothing much to celebrate.. well.. on the bright side.. need to wait for birthday den can celebrate meh? haha.. when ryan business okay le ryan treat go out one whole day okay?? lol.. confirm de.. want go where just say.. haha..

well.. sad that some people in ryan's life is like so self-centered.. yupe.. the same person ryan wrote about few days ago.. haiz.. very sad.. but cannot blame.. still too young to understand and cherish a relationship.. once you grow up you'll understand what ryan means..

talking about relationships.. how do we create a new relationship with a new person without forsaking a current relationship.. get what ryan mean? as in.. ryan knows person "A" very long.. how to keep this relationship and get to know "B"..? haiz.. is it really true that we can only choose one..? that we have to let go of something in order to get another..? must it really be that way? is moving on really THAT hard?? haiz.. dont wish to let go of older relationships.. those memories will be kept close to ryan's heart..

reminiscing those days that we spent in class.. dissing our teachers.. talking about the "botak" discipline master.. shouting across the room during "heck care periods"... and also those days that we mugged hard for the O levels.. studying in the library form morning to night just to get that 1 small step closer to our goal of doing well in the O levels.. also wont forget the last day of school when we sat in the parade square for 3 hours just to take photos with our favourite teachers when they pass by.. wont forget the "teh O" bandits.. haaha.. touring the school during curriculum time to runaway from lessons that were so damn boring.. this is also the same class that ryan only got to know for 1 year.. but the bond of the class is so strong no people could break.. remember the egg incident? and felani punching the glass door and it broke?? haha.. funny.. those memories will never be erased..!!

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well.. today was kinda slow at the start but as the day goes along.. it was kinda fun.. lets see..

hmm.. ryan and shawnie bro woke up late today and tua jerlin today for breakfast.. suposed to meet her at 8.30am.. very sorry.. ryan recieved 3 missed calls from jerlin.. haha.. sorry jerlin.. ryan was dead tired yesterday night.. den we went to meet jerlin and catt at causeway point at around 2pm today.. shawnie bro wanted to take his present from catt..when we reached causeway point.. catt said that she'll give shawnie bro his present only on tuesday.. haha.. belated present. haiz.. shawnie bro was like.. what the fcuk!?!?! haha.. cant blame him.. they were quarrelling on when to give the present and what to buy.. aha.. catt decided to buy him a billabong wallet from power 9.. lol.. $40.. but only giving him on monday.. hah.. happy waiting shawnie bro.. later get power 9 plastic bag only.. lol..haha.. neways.. jerlin got a call from her dad and had to go home.. haha.. nevermind.. can understand.. family more important.. especially when your sister went missing?!?! haha..

shawnie bro den went to lewis house while ryan went back home.. reached home no one was around.. at last silence.. den.. shit.. everyone reached home.. haiz.. sianz.. mom said to go first uncle's house.. granddaddy's belated brithday bbq.. haha.. reached there at about 6 plus.. den ryan as usual.. became the only one bbq-ing.. damn what lor.. no one pei ryan except ryan's second uncle.. wah.. den got alot of food.. got meat chicken and prawns to bbq.. and ryan was doing it alone.. haiz.. sweat in front of the bbq pit.. bbq-ed from 7 to 11.. 4 long hours.. damn hot and stuffy.. wah.. den ryan only eat after finish bbq everything.. took a big plate of everything and eat outside.. haiz.. sad sia.. bbq alone.. den ryan eat alone.. haiz.. 11pm daddy and mommie went to send granddaddy home.. ryan had to go home take the bus.. what the fcuk?!?!

ryan got to hang out with ryan's uncles and aunties.. haha.. talk cock sia.. and 2 of ryan's aunties called ryan an ah beng..!! what sia..!?! they said ryan hair and dressing was like an ah beng.. and since ryan looked chinese they said i'm very ah beng.. haha.. because of this remarks.. ryan going to go for haircut tomorrow!! haha.. cutting short cause of work.. hhaaha.. den hair short.. not going to get used to it but have to.. cos work need to be neat mah.. so hair must trim off the length abit.. think cutting of about an inch.. den fringe cut off abit.. wah.. behind cutting off an inch?!?! nevermind.. tomorrow ryan take picture..haha.. sure damn funny de.. haha..

back to the main topic.. haha.. ryan and ryan's 2nd auntie with her husband left only at midnight.. took the bus from chong pang.. walked with them as they also taking bus from there.. haha.. reached home at 12.30.. haha.. well.. ryan's tired and need to go to sleep le.. tomorrow morning going for haircut.. take care.. bubbye..!! also.. DONT FORGET TO TAG RYAN'S BLOGGIE!!!! thanks..!!

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ryan's lappy crashed again.. haiz.. brought to it helpdesk today to see what is the problem.. its been twice this week that ryan's lappy shows a blue screen.. haiz.. the technician say maybe the hardware problem.. stupid acer.. dunno how to make com de.. shout out to all peeps.. DONT BUY ACER!! haha...

shout out to ryan's bro.. shawnie..!! hair pee bird dae..!! 14 years old le wor.. must take care wor.. dont everytime pang seh friends.. and also.. bulk up la.. haha.. skinny and tall not nice wor.. ahaha.. ryan wish you a prosperous year ahead.. must treat future stead good wor.. dont want you haha..

anyways. ryan today wont blog about today's happenings.. instead.. ryan will blog about what ryan feel about today's happenings.. haiz.. 2 parts.. check it out..

if you love some and stay in denial.. its of no use.. you put it over msn or blogs and you can surely see the difference.. but what is the most obvious is asking someone to pass someone else a gift. example.. person "A" ask "B" to pass the present to "C".. its okay if you cant come to give the gift to the person but for god's sake.. YOU'RE IN THE SAME BUILDING AND EVEN ON THE SAME FLOOR..!! YOU'RE JUST A CORNER AWAY!! haiz.. its so insincere.. if ryan was "C".. ryan would have given it back to "B"and ask to give to "A" back.. So damn insincere..!! please lor.. you called the person to ask if can celebrate together.. den at last you ask someone else to give.. haiz.. so sad.. ran wasnt planning to be so mean against you.. but it just so happens that you forced these words out of ryan's mouth.. haiz.. ryan means is.. is it so hard to gice a present to someone who you care or even dont care.. den when you see us.. not even a word of hi is given.. ryan was expecting neither but what about your mei...? did you ever give it a thought? haiz.. ryan didnt expect you to be so self centered.. but you were.. so ryan was right in a way..

haiz.. also in this world there are people who are so damn thicked skinned.. haiz.. what's wrong with people who cant keep promises.. haiz.. is the phrase "promises are meant to be broken" really real? if it is.. why do people make promises in the first place..? giving hope..? i'd rather have no hope den get false hopes lo.. and its not he first time.. everytime someone else does it you kpkb.. den when you do it to someone else you scold the person shut up.. haiz.. den i wouldnt bother about you aymore.. ryan was stupid in teaching you what ryan thought you.. cos then.. brothers are no more brothers.. haiz.. form nw on.. ryan wont care le.. haiz.. suan le ba..

haha.. today ryan also learnt a new word.. haha mandarin word.. haha.. jorrence teach de. cos jerlin as asking stupid question.. so he said "wen fei hua".. haha.. (: no offence to jerlin though... she's a cute gerl.. like what ryan said to her just now.. she's a sweet gerl.. but with the vulgarity and also her laughter.. that "sweet" image is gone.. ahah... well... neways..

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hmm.. today was just a typical "w15p" day.. haha.. hmm.. that lee ah ping was si beh guai lan.. the ususal "i cannot help you.. you must find out yourself.." kns.. that faci damn useless.. ryab become faci better ar.. he walk around doing nothing except asking "how is everything?".. he's like a security guard ar..ryan think he no need be rp faci.. be rp security guard can le.. walk around campus ground.. ask everyone.. "how is everything?" haha..

well.. class was fun at the start.. cos there was no "stupidbox". so we were relieved.. but it was on probability.. wah..!! haha not bad la.. team rotate den faizal in ryan's team.. haha.. fun to have that joker on board.. cracking jokes.. den today ryan's team finish fast wor.. by 2.45 all done le.. during ppt today got war.. haha

firstly was ryan's ppt.. it was so damn irrtating ar.. that ar ping keep on asking to "show show show" think what?! team 3 striptease issit? kns.. everything also want to see.. say worksheet is guide den all want to see.. that one okay le den still want to aim ryan's group.. den ryan shoot him until he nothing to say le.. hha.. lucky not only ryan's team kana.. other team also tio sia.. haha.. next team for war was vanessa's.. hahafunny sia.. they like shotting the answers at fac rather than poing a ppt.. hah.. den came ah beng's team.. haiz... main event sia..

well.. he was going through something about the time for the op (prob statement) den we ask why he refer to the den 2005 when can refer to the 2006 figs.. den he said something about more reliable.. den vanessa said that 2006 latest ma.. should be more reliable.. well.. actually ryan think also makes sense la..latest should be more reliable ma.. amyways.. a quarrel broke up between vanessa and ah beng.. so far.. if ryan calcualtion not wrong.. this is 4th fight in W15P.. what is happening la? come on man.. only 4th week.. another 12 weeks.. 3 more months.. cut the crap la.. work together la.. enemy is faci.. not our mates.. haiz..

anyways.. today faizal is the devil!! haha.. offer ryan cigarettes.. just cos ryan accompany him go smoke.. spoke about the fine incident 2 weeks ago.. haiz.. ryan will never forget that day.. kns.. anyways.. my quit smoking campaign still on wor.. 12 days liao.. going on strong..haha... well.. ryan's plan for next few days?

Shawnie bro birthday..!! friday 11.5.2007..!!! 14th.. well.. ryan organinsing de.. haha.. dunno what to do.. cake.. flour. egg.. and presents confirm have de.. shawnie bro.. if you reading this.. ryan really sorry.. hah.. 1 day in a year to sabo you until you DIE!! haha.. no revenge wor..!!

neways.. going sleep le.. nitez peeps.. haha.. tag ryan's board ya?

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Well.. this is gonna be a very long post.. cos its what happened throughout the weekend all the way to today.. here it goes.

Friday ryan did not go school(sorry guys) cos of EMERGENCY(heard that bro?).. was at bustop when saw siao ah beng.. 8.45 still at yishun.. sure late de.. neways.. reached admiralty at about 9.30 but no sight of carista.. bloody pang seh ryan.. so contacted joe to meet ryan.. met up with shawn bro soon after at 768.. met jorrence on the way there.. den met shawn and tobias.. shawn's eyes damn swollen lo.. can see that last night cried.. obvious.. neways.. went over to his house at about 12 plus.. see if he okay ma.. hah.. that bloody bitch ask ryan take care of him.. as if i dunno.. leave him aside and ask ryan clean up her mess.. rich kids.. like this de.. hate them to the core..!! Unfortunately.. while watching step up on ryan's laptop with shawn and tobias.. it crashed.. argh!! had to reformat it..

soon after met joe went to UK fair there to chat.. neat the mrt station there.. can see the view of the fun fair also happy.. haha.. cos no money.. sat there talk about ryan's ex girlfriends since he ask.. haha.. spoke from 9 plus to about 11.. talk and talk and talk and talk.. haha... funny sia.. miss those days in nov-dec last year..

hmm.. Saturday was a full day without the laptop.. damn sian.. went over to shawn bro's house to see how's he hanging up.. looks okay la.. jorence was there too,, haha.. den say wanna go watch spiderman 3!! Got shawn, ryan, jorrence, jerlin, kelly, joe and bernard.. But ryan got no money!! haha.. bro shawn say he help ryan fork out the money as jerlin and kelly sponsor him.. haha thanks bro shawn... during the show.. damn noisy.. laugh here.. laugh there.. talk here.. talk there.. wanna go watch second time... any sponsors?? haha..

after that.. we went to titanic.. haha.. like what jerlin said.. got many memories there.. lewis birthday celebrate there.. haha.. miss those days.. neways.. from there we went to RP to sit sit there.. jerlin pang seh us.. haha.. (read your blog le.. its okay..) the view there at night very different.. dunno how to say.. must go there yourselves. haha.. quite nice la.. and very quite.. haha.. den took last bus to yishun at 12.30.. haha..

sunday.. hmm.. ryan very sian that day.. cos shawn bro say going out with lewis bro.. go play bball.. sian ar.. cannot play le since ryan's arm dislocated.. so met up with joe at about 3.. he wanted to go library study so ryan pei him lo.. haha.. den asked jorrence along also. haha.. scapegoat.. (sorry happyhappy) haha.. neways.. he was busy "maple-ing".. maple kia.. haha.. asked him come down.. met him at about 5.40.. will never foeget this time.. cos he late so treat ryan and joe coke..!! haha.. went to eat dinner at horizon den think about where to go.. cos quite late le.. about 8.. den went to sembawang de canberra park.. haha.. play swing.. lol.. like small kid sia.. haha.. play play until about 10 den joe want go home le.. so we all went off back to woodlands..

Yesterday.. hmm.. went to school specially to reformat my com.. haiz. sian.. all of ryan's C drive gone... all ryan's schoolwork form day 1 gone!! Argh!! supposed to meet shawn bro and jorrence at 9am but all pang seh me..!! den go shawn house after reformatting at about 12. met jorrence there also.. den we go out to causeway eat at burger king.. haha.. met lewis at there den go new court.. sianz.. cannot play bball cos of the hand.. so.. end up.. ryan and jorrence sit at there watch them play.. siao.. haha.. den shawn bro's flowet slippers (damn gay rite? haha:)) so we go up to nearby block do business.. haha.. came back with a new one.. haha.. after that all left for home le..

Today not in class cos wake up late.. at 11 plus.. mummie was shocked.. i just say take off.. haha.. can ma.. den play x-box.. damn sian day today.. den hor.. shawn bro go out with tobias watch spiderman!! argh!! never jio sia!! kns.. i wanna watch again..!! haiz.. go bro lewis house awhile help him settle his stupid com.. haha.. dunno how to follow instructions.. haiz.. so now at home.. reflecting.. haiz..

this past weekend to today.. alot of things happened also that is bad.. not only good things.. just ryan dont want say.. ryan will get what ryan said done.. trust ryan on this can? just need some time.. ryan know its been long and its ryan's mistake for being too careless.. but ryan will make the wrongs right.. ryan have thought long and hard this past weekend.. ryan's education business will run.. e-mails have been sent.. once ryan get reply ryan will go solo first.. den ryan's partners who want come in can come in anytime.. the doors are open.. ryan need more pple to help out in this project.. ryan cannot do this alone..

haiz.. anyways.. its been 11 days since ryan smoked ryan's last stick of ciggarette.. like what ryan said.. if ryan wants.. ryan will do it de.. thanks to all the pple who have supported and believed in ryan to quit smoking.. its hard for ryan since everyday pple around ryan smokes.. even at home.. 3 pple smoke.. so its very hard for ryan to not let all this come to ryan.. if can ryan also want ryan's loved ones to quit also.. but ryan dont think it'll happen anytime soon. cos no one at home believes that ryan is quitting smoking.. all say that although ryan say will quit.. ryan will surely start again de.. they say that ryan is the kind who is not committed to something.. so will quit halfway.. haiz.. smoking is a rich man's sport.. one month spend up to $300.. how to smoke again.. haiz. ryan must prove it to them.. so to everyone out there who is helping ryan directly or indirectly to quit.. ryan wants to say a million thanks for believing in ryan.. and ryan will not let you guys down.. this is ryan's promise to these people..

anyways.. ryan will end here.. as a leaving note.. ryan wanna say. "ryan is really a changed person.. believe ryan for once.." Nitez.. (:

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hmm.. ryan's life is full of ups and downs.. dunno where to begin.. ryan's day wasnt boring nor was it exciting.. let ryan see.. where should ryan start?...

today.. as usual now.. ryan woke up late.. phew.. but ryan was still in time for class(came in exactly at 9.15am, haha).. lesson on communication was as usual.. fun.. haha.. because of our Faci Yi Ting.. den ryan remembered that it was Yi Ting's last day as our Faci today.. haiz.. so sad.. she was a very morning person and would try to perk us up everytime its her module.. no more her liao.. haiz.. so sad..
this is her:


had taken this pic as memories.. haha.. Yi Ting and Ryan.. great Faci.. you'll be missed by W15P alot.. <333! haha

next.. CAT FIGHT!! haha.. no la.. nothing.. i never say anthing...

damn big annuncement!! CHUAN ZHI!! HAIR PEE BIRD DAE!! 17 le wor.. "tua kee" la.. ahaha.. neways.. wish you a great year ahead.. this guy ar.. damn "ham chee" ar..
scared tio birthday bash run away damn fast ar.. haha.. nevermind.. belated bash also can. haha.. well pic's up on ryan and Chuan Zhi..


chuan zhi(ham chee kia) and Ryan.. haha.. ham chee ma.. so at behind lo.. scared ryan eat him.. haha..!!

hmm.. next.. okay.. spoke to benji.. haha.. nice guy.. haha..great knowing you.. hmm.. will get together sometimes.. hahh... just abit scared.. lol.. stay strong ya..?(:

the biggest "up" event...!! RYAN'S BACK WITH SHAWN LE!! haha.. we're cool le.. no more quarrelling liao.. haha..glad to be on the same page.. we set aside our differences on msn.. during 3rd meeting?!?! haha.. shawn bro read ryan's blog den shawn bro say he felt it was his fault.. well bro.. forget it.. put that in the past okay.. we have a bright future ahead of us.. haha..

the biggest "down" event?... adeline broke up with shawn..?!?! OH MY GOD!! found out at 10.30pm.. and it was partly my fault..haiz.. cos ryan was quarrelling with shawn and we refused to talk to each other. haiz.. ryan so stupid ar.. ryan need to set things straight tomorrow.. haiz.. shawn cried while chatting with ryan on msn.. so sad.. hate to see ryan's bro cry.. not the first time le.. haiz.. ryan will try to get things straight..haiz. shawn bro: stay strong.. ryan will do his best..

haiz.. funny day today.. in a sense that so much happened in such a short span of 24 hours in ryan's lfe... haiz.. hopefully a night of sleep will get things better and more straight... haiz.. so damn tiring.. all this rollercoaster ride today is making ryan damn du lan eh.. dont even have time to know what happened to ryan's self today.. haiz.. focus too much on other pple.. ryan didnt even realised that ryan havent eaten the whole day... haiz.. no appetite ba.. sianz..

haiz.. let ryan sleep ba.. tune in tmr..

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hmm.. supposed to meet ryan's uncle today in the morning since ryan didnt go school.. reached his office den he say he got his helper le so no need ryan's help liao.. kns.. so went down to school awhile visit the class.. haha.. funny sia.. they were damn shocked.. cos ryan reached there at 12 den left at 2.. haha.. but ryan helped them find the codes la..

den went to meet jerlin, adeline, charisa and joe at admiralty mac.. shocked to see shawn, tobias and "happy happy".. haha.. forgot his real name.. only his nickname.. (sorry).. neways.. like stupid sia.. walk around aimlessly to causeway point and the UK Fun fair.. until 7 den left for home.. den all broke off.. haiz..

damn sian and sad sia.. haiz.. must it end up this way? we started off great and it has to come to this.. bro for the past 6 months or so.. haiz.. ryan is sure we'll do just fine in our own lives..

Eh.. what a coincidence.. heard "how to save a life" over the radio.. suddenly.. it makes so much meaning.. check out the lyrics..
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How to save a life
Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
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neways.. hope everything goes well with everyone.. pple in W15P.. ryan very sorry pang seh you all today.. hah.. but you guys did fine without ryan..

to isnani: is ryan and vanessa that fun? come on la its only a day without the jokers... haha..

neways.. take care guys.. ryan's gonna hit the sack early tonight.. haha.. check out this space tmr ya? nitez...

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hey.. woke up damn late today.. at 9.45am.. haha. DID NOT GO FOR UT TEST!! haha.. guys in W15P.. sorry guys.. i really tried damn hard to wake up.. but i cant.. too tired la.. so damn tired.. 2 nights slept less than 6 hrs.. haiz.. feel bad sia.. like pang seh them.. cos plan to go le ma.. den told them meet today den we leave.. den at last i never go also.. haiz.. sorry wor W15P!! haha.. neways.. damn tired(dunno say how many times le).. blog in later la.. wanna chill first.. see ya..!! :)

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ryan havent touched a cigg eversince the incident.. hmm.. great work ryan! well.. going out to 7-11 all this kinds of shops gives ryan a bad feeling. cos ryan gets easily tempted to buy.. even at home also.. cos ryan's dad, ryan's elder bro and younger bro also smokes.. and ryan's mom still thinks that ryan smokes.. haiz.. so sad.. dunno eversince that incident told them le that ryan will not touch a cigg anymore.. but they dont believe a thing that ryan says): maybe because that was what ryan always say last time.. and ryan still smoked.. so now i think they wont believe.. haiz.. so sad wor? haiz.. nevermind ba.. family dont believe still got ryan's friends.. they know what ryan is feeling and going through.. and they know that ryan is really serious this time rite? hahh... dunno la.. some believe.. some don't. but ryan dont care la.. believe what they want..

talking about believe..haiz.. how come people sre so simple-minded huh? people spend time with someone.. say ryan likes that person..haiz.. come on la.. how old le..?! plus.. that person how old..? ryan how old? hahh.. i'm like 6 years older that that person.. cannot de la.. dont worry wor.. nothing will happen..

neways.. wish things to go back to normal between ryan and ryan's bros.. haiz.. sad sia like this.. hahh.. all splitting up le.. busy busy with own stuff.. want to meet up also so damn hard.. haiz.. if they reading this.. hope they think about it ba.. and no offence wor.. not say ryan du lan but... cannot be everytime busy busy de ma.. haiz.. poly life more busy than secondary life.. but ryan got more time in poly life.. how come cannot meet? it boils down to if they really want to meet anot ba.. and you should have guessed the answer ba.. ryan wont say anything.. up to people's maturity and perception.. haiz.. neways.. ryan want to turn in le.. nitez.. tme will try to blog in... wireless at here damn fcuked up la.. haha.. nitez.. take care...!! (:

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ryan didnt post yesterday cos was busy having fun... haha.. neways.. here's an update on ryan's idiotic and useless life..

yesterday damn no mood to do anything in class sia.. haha.. had to do ppt on learning but went on to snapping candid pics..!! haha.. how to have mood? everyone just came back othe weekends and tomorrow is another day off school... hahh.. faci wong is like.." come on man..". trying to motivate the class morale.. hah.. its not that ryan purposely dont want to do la.. but still in the holiday mood la.. hahah... neways.. we managed to scrape through the ppt.. phew.. here's the pics we took.. feast your eyes!! bleah.. haha


































jiu after school met up with joe at admiralty and went to his place cos he wanted to change.. after that he followed ryan back to change also.. haha.. after that at about 8 we went over to sembawang to meet adeline, charisa and jerlin.. we then walked all the way from sembawang shopping centre all the way to sun plaza!! wow.. ryan and joe was like damn tired cos we didnt sleep the night before.. and we had to walk like 15 minutes..?!?! haha.. damn tiring sia..

when we reach sun plaza..we went to mcdonalds(again?!) cos they wanted to grab a bite.. ryan "met leo" at mac.. haha.. rp students will know what ryan mean.. bleah.. haha... anyways.. the topic was on lifelong learning.. what the fcuk is that?!?! haha.. damn hard sia.. just wrote down about 4 paragraphs and submitted.. heck care la.. haha.. after mac.. we went to send off jerlin at the bustop.. wasted sia.. cos she cannot ton overnight..

dent to the nearby 7-11 to get some cold beer.. haha.. nothing beats carlsberg.. bleah.. neways.. none of them liked it so i had the whole bottle to myself.. haha.. yahoo!! it was about midnight and it was left with ryan, joe, adeline and charisa.. we dunno where to go sia..!! haha... decided that we go back to adeline's and spend the night chatting at the balcony.. haha.. nice view sia.. lied down on the floor and looked up at the stars.. hah.. den fell asleep awhile.. ryan pang seh sia.. say want to talk den at last sleep.. but ryan did wake up and talked la.. ahha.. dont say ryan didnt wor..

we talked about life, school, exams and also some people's relationships la.. haiz.. so sad..:( some things are so simple but they make it seemed so damn complicated.. haiz.. den say relationship sucks la all this.. please lo.. got people want to be in relationship cannot.. you all got the liberty to have one jiu good liao.. haiz.. found out the truth about someone.. haiz.. small argument only.. haiz.. maybe cos of age ba.. makes it hard to communicate..

neways.. my bro shawn's birthday's in ten days!!! and i still dunno what to buy for him.. (if you're reading this.. act blur can..? haha) hmm.. neways.. today went to adeline's cos teaching jerlin, adeline, joe and charisa.. exams in a few days so they now den pia.. haha..not a bad thing la.. after that.. went off with joe and had dinner.. cannot say dinner la cos it wasnt sort of a meal.. only prata.. hahah... but still full wor..

neways.. tomorrow.. UT MOCK TEST!!! only the test running of the system so nothing to study.. But.. Argh!! si beh sian ar!!!! Computing and mathematical methods?!?! That damn faci lee ah ping ar!! dunno how to teach de.. he's a walking tape recorder la.. only say "i cannot help you.. you need to find out your self. I'm only a facilitator.. I cannot give answers..".. na beh.. like that ryan also can be facilitator(any takers? haha..) haiz.. no one likes his module man.. some of us planning to leave after the UT Teat.. including ryan la.. hahh.. cannot blame le la.. his lessons so boring sia.. den must crack head de... find the codes.. we'll see ba tomorrow how.. haiz.. neways.. ryan wanna turn in le.. getting late.. tomorrow's a long day ar.. hah.. UT Test.. den PLAY!! haha.. like small kid sia.. but going out meet people tmr.. so.. hah.. enjoy..

till then.. cheers!!

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