the first time he cried, his tears revealed the adorable yet the silly side of himself.
the second time he cried, his tears show how vulnerable and fragile he is affected by your harsh words.
tears bring honesty too. about how he feel towards you.
)':

in the midst of the moment, the world stops.
he's quitting smoking once and for all.
whatever he does, he does it for you.

just got back the lappy yesterday.

userid problems. fcukservers! _|_
anyways, installed championship manager 08
thanks to shamus seow at ithelpdesk! hahas!((:

the weekend was overall great.
not gonna elaborate on it, too much details.
in short, we just had lotsa fun singing, slacking, eating, walkinghome.

slacked saturdaynight outside. came home only on sunday at 2pm.
slept sunday away.. wow~

yesterday he was chatting with you awhile with you before he had to dc.
sorry, he really didnt mean it. you're very important to him now.
forgive him?

wanted to go town to run some errands and laze around.
no mood to go back home.
loads of stuff running through his mind nowadays.
but benji and sabrina was heading there too.
town-ed together.

slacked at spins@hereen. chatted and bitched.
caught cloverfield with benji.

overall, it was an "imax theatre"-ish experience.

after that went to opp citibank to slack
waited for eugenia girlfriend
she had a minor op to cut off the ingrown toenail.
takecares babe((: lovesya!
jon and gary came over as well.
chatted and bitched again~ hahas!((:
left for home at 11ish. haiz..

he had his fair share of upsanddowns this few days.
a real rollercoaster ride. mixedemotions.
he had a good time spending the weekend with you.
and eversince then, you're someone special to him.
and hearing what people said about you makes him feel really down.
he dont wish to carry a plastic smile around.
but now, he has to. its too deep to turn around.
perhaps sooner or later people will start talking..
... or has it already started??
its bound to hit the streets.

what is he to do? he's scared, lost, afraid.
what to priortise now?
sometimes, he just wants to let everything just fall.
dont wanna bother too much. but sadly, he cant.
he's on checkmate. whatever the next step is, its fatal.

things have been real messy this days.
town-ing, sentosa, plus work later.urgh! )):

haiz.
sometimes he just wants to stop everything that's happening.
things are really moving too fast.

hung out with eugeniagirlfriend in town yesterday
spoke to her about stuff. looks like word is going around already.
busybodys!

Why do we always close our eyes when we are sleeping and dreaming,

when we are crying, when we are wondering about something?
Or when we are kissing someone?
It’s because the most beautiful in this world can’t be seen.

There is something that we want to let go.
Some people want to leave it. But remember,
release isn’t end of the world, but beginning from a new life.
There is happiness for those who are crying,
for those who have been hurt,
for those who’s already looking around,
and for those who had tried,
because they are humans that can appraise
how important some people that had touched their life…

An impressive love is when you’re crying yet you still care about him.
Is when he does not care about you but you’re still waiting for him,
is when he started to love another person and
you still can smile and say, “I’m happy for you.”

Strong people aren’t they who always win,
but they are the ones whom always stay stiff when they fall.
And deep down, they need love so much more than anyone else.

Loving someone isn’t how to forget, but how to forgive.
Isn’t how to hear, but what you feel about.
Isn’t a thing to let go, but how to hold out.
But don’t waste time on someone
whom isn’t willing to waste their time on you.

It’s more dangerous crying deep in your heart than crying out loud.
Tears that come out from your eyes can be erased.
But, tears that you hide scratch with some injury
that is so hard to make it gone.

There will be times when we will stop to love someone.
It’s not because that person have already stopped to love us but
we realize that he will be happier if we let it go.
Better to wait for someone that really care for us because
life is too short to play some love games.

Sometimes, the person that we really love is someone
that really hurt us and sometimes,
friends that hug and cry with us,
will be the one that loves you just that
we don’t know about it.

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I promise you that someday our paths will cross again,
and our hearts will meet. and we shall realise how fast our hearts beat.

If i have to walk just to see you, i will.
i would climb every mountain and up every hill.
i would swim a thousand miles and run across the wide green field.
just to see you smile and hear how you feel.

i don't wanna be with you for a while,
and i am willing to go that extra mile.
i don't care what other people say,
I just wanna see you more and more each day.

I just wanna kiss you when the rain pours,
I just wanna hug you when the snow falls.
I just wanna hear your sweet dainty voice from your calls,
no matter how faint it sounds through the walls.

I would give anything up just to see you smile.
I wish seeing you was as easy as turning a dial.
I dream of you each and every cold night.
and of the day when you will truly hold me tight.

you may feel i am stupid or silly.
some may even think i am crazy.
but that's what happen when you truly love someone,
that he or she becomes your little one.

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Don't ever give up if you still want to try,
don't ever wipe your tears if you still want to cry.
Don't ever settle for an answer if you still want to know.
Don't ever say you don't love her if you can't let her go.

A failing love is like desperately hanging on to something precious;
not wanting to give up, but your hands feel the pain.
And, when you finally let go, you're free from any pain,
but your hands are empty.

Letting go of someone dear to you is hard,
but holding on to someone who doesn't even feel the same is much harder.
Giving up doesn't mean you are weak!
It only means that you are strong enough to let go!

A distant cry is love lost,
but the sound of laughter is one that'll last forever,
whatever that may be.

One day you'll love me, the way I loved you.
One day you'll think of me the way I thought of you.
One day you'll cry for me, the way I cried for you.
One day you'll want me, but I won't want you.

You said you didn't want to see me get hurt,
so does that mean you closed your eyes when I cried?
I thought I'd forget you, but I guess I forgot to.

Sometimes we tend to be in despair when the person we love leaves us,
but the truth is, it's not our loss, but theirs,
for they left the only person who wouldn't give up on them.

There are reasons we met, reasons for the good and the bad times,
and more importantly, a reason to an end.

We have more to learn, more to experience,
and more loving left in this lifetime.
The worst thing is holding on to someone
who doesn't want to be held on to.

Love is letting go of the one you love,
hoping that they will come back to you
when they realize what they have lost.
Should I hate you because you hurt me?
Or should I love you because you made me feel special?

If you can't save the relationship, at least save your pride.
Falling in love is awfully simple, but falling out of love is simply awful.

People say that love doesn't cost, but then again,
why do so many people pay for it?
A heart breaking isn't always as loud as a bomb exploding.
Sometimes it can be as quiet as a feather falling.
And the most painful thing is, no one really hears it, except you..

How can I promise you forever when tomorrow is so far away from me?
How can I dry your tears when I have a bleeding heart inside of me?
How can I ever forget you when your name is etched so deep within me?
Maybe if I had just looked away that first night you came towards me,
everything would be different and my heart wouldn't be breaking right now.

Often at times we say goodbye to the person we love without wanting to.
Though that doesn’t mean that we've stopped loving them or we've stopped to care.
Sometimes goodbye is a painful way to say I love you.
If someone you love breaks your heart,
cry a river, build a bridge, and get over it.

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"Thank You"

I thought that I could always count on you,
I thought that nothing could become between us two.
We said as long as we would stick together,
We’d be alright,
We’d be ok.
But I was stupid
And you broke me down
I’ll never be the same again.

So thank you for showing me,
That best friends can not be trusted,
And thank you for lying to me,
Your friendship and good times we had you can have them back

Yeah!

I wonder why it always has to hurt,
For every lesson that you have to learn.
I won’t forget what you did to me,
How you showed me things,
I wish I’d never seen.
But I was stupid,
And you broke me down,
I’ll never be the same again.

So thank you for showing me,
That best friends can not be trusted,
And thank you for lying to me,
Your friendship the good times we had you can have them back

When the tables turn again,
You’ll remember me my friend,
You’ll be wishing I was there for you.
I’ll be the one you’ll miss the most,
But you’ll only find my ghost.
As time goes by,
You’ll wonder why,
You’re all alone.

So thank you for showing me,
That best friends can not be trusted,
And thank you for lying to me,
Your friendship and good times we had you can have them back.

So thank you, for lying to me,
So thank you, for all the times you let me down
So thank you, for lying to me,
So thank you, your friendship you can have it back

Timbaland Ft. One Republic - Apologize

I'm holding on your rope
Got me ten feet off the ground
And I'm hearing what you say
But I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down
But wait...
You tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around and say..

That it's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

I'd take another chance, take a fall, take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
(But that's nothing new)
Yeah yeah

I loved you with a fire red, now it's turning blue
And you say
Sorry like the angel heaven let me think was you
But I'm afraid

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
Woahooo woah

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, yeah yeah
I said it's too late to apologize, a yeah

I'm holding on your rope
Got me ten feet off the ground...

I'm broken hearted, I can't let you know
And I won't let it show, you won't see me cry..