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today's pulling me down badly, and now i'm in a very emotional mood.
it started out in the morning when my sis fainted at home and had to call in an ambulance.
it made me so troubled that i thought i couldnt concentrate on my module today.

thank god class was fun, but of course i was still concerned about my sis.
called mom around noon and she said sis has been on drip since she arrived.
total of 3 drips - 2 on glucose and one on potassium chloride or something like that.

after school, i headed over to KKH to take a look at my sis.
slept on the bus on the way there, was so darn tired.
upon reaching there seeing her on drip hurts me alot.
stayed there for about 3 hours before making my move back home at 10.



today, i've been thinking about you alot. d0nt ask me, i wonder why too.
i bumped into you twice today, and definitely, it made my day.
all the way home til now, you've been on my mind.
i reminisce your smile, or what's left of it.
and i started thinking, why is this happening?
i can say that though we've known each other for months now, we seldom talk.
and even when we do, its of some crappy stuff.
though sometimes its obvious that one of us wasnt interested in the conversation.

i can only conclude to one thing, its either i fall in love too easily, or its true.
shucks, i didnt want it to turn out this way. aye.

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a new era starts; school, work, play, family, love.
dont be amazed, i plan to prioritize my life in THAT order.

these 2 months have been very grueling for me.
leaving home, facing my parents.
new job, facing up to retrenchment.
play, shop til i run dry; which usually is around this time of the month.
family, spending little quality time together.
love, if i ever had any.

i have no self-belief, not at this point of time.
a close friend once asked me, "we're 20, what are we supposed to do?"
i answered him, "ohya, shit. i aint got a clue."
guys at my age are heading into NS, some have ended theirs.
but me, i'm still outside, having fun.
fun? yea right.

i have some friends who envy me; work, study, play - juggling all of them.
they ask me how do i do that. i answer them i just do.
truth is, i aint got a clue how i do them. i just force myself to do it.
why? because at this day and age, i feel that happyness is no longer what we pursuit.
its that paper with yusof ishak's face that we're all chasing after, no offence to him though.

truth is, i envy more of them people who can hang out late at night, chilling out at bars, or coffee places.
in my heart, i just wanna ask them "dont you people gotta work?"
but then, we're two different kinds of people.
some of us work for extra income, others work because that's their only income.
that's why i've succumb myself to this kind of lifestyle.
because i know how difficult the world is out there.
i'm not born with a golden spoon up my ass like some people.
i'm born with nothing but a thumb in my mouth, so pardon me if i dont hang out in town after work.

but i feel some contentment in my holiday.
i had a chalet, some barbeque, and of course booze and great people.
though its nothing like a dinner at a hotel, or some party in a club but hey, i enjoyed with my mates.
we chilled, ate and had our fair share of laughter.

now that my life's back to all work and school, i'm in the midst of a big decision.
in school, i'm cramped up with FYP, PP, CE and my daily lessons.
at work i'm stressed up with paperwork, staffing and scheduling, taking care of my inventory and also helping my colleague manage his outlet.
basically, i'm playing an acting in-charge in 2 outlets. and this week my deadlines are tight.
i have 2 sets of paperwork to submit and also i have some sales at TAKA.
definitely not the best time to be working and schooling.

i gotta work, since i have some installments to pay off.
after that, which will end by june, i'm going on a short rest, relax and retreat down at Redang Island.
plans are tight and i gotta have money rolling in first.
after that i gotta start saving up for my grand 21st birthday, which i havent planned what to do yet.


looks like i'm extending my retirement til when i enter NS, shucks.

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